08/27/09 I AM LOVABLE / Roanoke, VA
Appearance hosted by the Art Musuem of Western Virginia.
Mantra Trailer appearance hosted by the Art Musuem of Western Virginia.
This is the first day of the cross-country tour. The kick off is tonight at the Center for Documentary Studies. I’ll be presenting the project during the Fresh Docs program. “Setting Up the Mantra Trailer” was shot in January with Erika Simon in Atlanta, GA. We edited it this week for it’s premier tonight at Fresh Docs.
Kertész leszek, fát nevelek, I’ll be a gardener of trees
kelô nappal én is kelek, with the rising sun I’ll rise
From a poem by the Hungarian poet, Jozsef Attila.
Erika is staying a few extra days with a friend in Vero Beach, FL and will be flying back to Chapel Hill later in the week. I’m taking the two-night stay at Long Point Park in Melbourne Beach, FL to pull away into solitude and enjoy time alone in the trailer.
After our fun evening at The Top the night before, I checked email and found a big fat rejection email waiting for me from the Creative Capital Foundation. The next day we took the Mantra Trailer to Daytona Beach. It was rejection on top of rejection and disappointment. Maybe it was my state of mind, maybe it was the tourist mentality? I couldn’t get a single person to listen to me for 10 seconds let alone enter the trailer. I felt down and out on the project. My mantra for the day was I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I’m taking this time alone at Long Point Park to re-center and find my track.
Thanks Erika for being such a patient, non-judgemental mirror and traveling partner.
This is the first of a series of Mantra Trailer Trailers that explore transitional states of being. These spring from personal experience but I hope they will translate well enough in the world. This Trailer reflects the way I feel about undertaking such a huge creative project as the Mantra Trailer.